looking for..

uhm, there's no future here..
i'm looking for...


uhm...

haccit nai..

kalo sebelum-sebelumnya aq nulis blog pake english(klu ceritanya singkat n english-nya ga sulit) dan indonesia(klu ceritainnya udah sulit bgt pake english).. maka kali ini aq mw 'mar-amangoi'...
'haccit nai ngingikku on...'
ternyata sakit gigi membuatQ benar2 ga berdaya, aq ga bisa makan, bahkan untuk ngomong pun maleessss.... hiks.... haccit nai inong :'(

tangis ma jo au dah...

kuliahQ..

udah 2 minggu sejak selesai mid test aq ga jelas kuliah...
malas.....
urghhhh.....


gmn y?!?!

this is my parent's pic..
this pic was taken at 1973 when they are young :)

i love them so much...

terbiasa

aq telah terbiasa dengan semua ini..
awalnya memang sulit,aq harus menahan sakit sendiri..
tapi kini semua udah bisa aq terima..
but, aq takut ini akan membawaq pada saat aq tak menginginkan semua lagi.. saat di mana aq tidak membutuhkan semua lagi.. saat itu..

bahagianya...

bahagianya yaghz klu org2 terdekat kta punya visi yg sama dgn kta..
klu mreka punya orientasi yg sama dgn kta..
urghhh... sayangnya ntu hnya impian yg gk tw kpn terwujud or bakalan terwujud atw gk :'(

don't

don't make me confuse please..
it's hard for me to decide the best way..
uhm, urghhhhhh....

the special one

my Jesus, you are my life, my strength, and my everything..
teach me and show me Your way, that I'll always be in You..

mom, you are my soul..
dad, you are the biggest inspiration..
brothers, you are my true friends..
sister, you are the most beautiful flower..
nephews and nieces, you are the sweetheart..
i love you all, I miss our moments, and I do hope the best for us :)

darling, you are the most special gift..
i do love you and the way you love me too :)

thanks Jesus, for all the special I have..
give me a heart to be the special for them also..

no hard feeling..

there are some people that respect only to whom can give profit for them(money or social benefit)..
uhm, but I realize that almost people do that, isn't it?? yet the problem, I think, is how to minimize that, by start it in our self first..
a bit experience 'bout this.. I ever met people that only respect me if I can help or bring a benefit for them.. the bitter is some people just want to get the profit but never show their respect.. hahaha... that's it, I think.. coz I know that life goes on, n I know there are so many love I received from my family :)

time after time..

time after time I realize that I love you so much, mom n dad :)

melayang..

fikiranQ melayang jauh entah ke mana.. eh, tiba-tiba singgah di pelabuhan sebuah telaga keruh yang bernama jika..
jika besok aq tidak punya kesempatan untuk bernafas(ini jika ya.. jika aq dipanggil malam ini), aq merasa aq belum pernah melakukan apa2 yang baik kepada orang lain, orang tua, saudara, teman, apalagi manusia lain(wah,kalo gitu aq takut dunkz)..tapi ketakutan tak cukup membuatQ berlayar dari telaga itu.. jika memang besok tak ada lagi udara buatQ,sepertinya tidak ada yang akan menangis dan kehilangan, kecuali ibu dan ayahQ tercinta.. eits, kalo gitu ga mau ah.. TuhanQ, berikan aq kesempatan untuk menyayangi ayah dan ibuQ lebih lagi dulu,Amin..
ternyata hanya kasih sayang mereka yang sanggup mendorongQ meninggalkan telaga keruh itu..

not me..

I have to realize that the girl I ever saw in my dreams is not me,
and I know these aren't my dreams..

now I'm looking for another chance and waiting for the next season to leave all these things..
also, I'm trying to be brave.. this is the most difficult for me, but I'll try..
uhm, it reminds me to this song: "young girl don't cry, I'll be right here when your world starts to fall.. young girl it's alright your tears will dry you'll soon be free to fly"
ow, suck.. that's it..

I'll continue to look and wait for :)

the 24th

this Monday 24th reminds me a little story 'bout love n life..
love that has been changed my life, and life that was changing by the love..

i realize that life is such a school, there will so many things to learn till we have to leave this world..
every day we learn new things, and the learning process will shape our character(our mind and our attitude). but there's an important thing that almost be forgotten(even if by me my self), like Jesus have told us, to love His creature.. i just wanna say that everybody was equipped with the ability to love,the rest is our task :)

the first

this is the first..